1st Post-Chemo Scans
Today is our first set of scans after finishing treatment. She'll be having a full body nuclear bone scan, MRI of the pelvis, and CT of the chest. Because of her age, she'll have to be put under anesthesia during all of these. The hospital does an amazing job at scheduling, so these will all be back to back to minimize how long she's under anesthesia and to make it as smooth as possible.
Unfortunately the whole process of going under anesthesia still really scares Hazel and as the nurse carries her away, she cries and screams. I've gotten so used to her not being scared anymore, as she knows the routine of blood draws, vital signs, appointments, etc and handles them like a little champ. It's a blessing, but also kind of sad to my mama heart that she's gotten used to these things. I hate that she's immune to it. I feel like we've stolen part of her childhood. So when she acts like any child and gets scared with routine hospital procedures she's unfamiliar with, in a way, I'm happy to see a normal child reaction, but it breaks my heart all over.
We've been talking about being done with chemo, but I'm hoping her brain can handle that we still have frequent lab draws, appointments, & scans to follow up at first. I wish I could tell her we're all done going to the hospital all together, but we're not.
In a way, I can already tell that this post-treatment time period will be harder. It's going to be hard to keep living life, but with a new routine; a routine without chemo feels like we're not doing anything. It's scary to think that we can be enjoying living life with our real-Hazel, the one not affected by the chemo, and then suddenly be blindsided when scans come along. Scans will be every 3 months for at least the first year with even more frequent labs. Will we be a wreck every 3 months? Will it be too long between hospital procedures that Hazel will be even more freaked out? Only time will tell. But for now, I continue to look to God for peace and comfort knowing he's in control. Comfort in knowing God knows the plans he has for Hazel and he loves her infinitely more than I humanly can. And in that, I find peace.
Philippians 4: 6-7 "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Grateful:
- That Hazel has been feeling good and having lots of energy and personality
- That she continues to be optimistic, funny, spunky, energetic and full of sass!
- That she's been asking for food and saying she's hungry (still not eating much, but the interest is increasing!)
Prayer Requests:
- For CLEAR scans today!!
- That Hazel will handle the anesthesia well
- For peace and comfort today while we wait for her
Unfortunately the whole process of going under anesthesia still really scares Hazel and as the nurse carries her away, she cries and screams. I've gotten so used to her not being scared anymore, as she knows the routine of blood draws, vital signs, appointments, etc and handles them like a little champ. It's a blessing, but also kind of sad to my mama heart that she's gotten used to these things. I hate that she's immune to it. I feel like we've stolen part of her childhood. So when she acts like any child and gets scared with routine hospital procedures she's unfamiliar with, in a way, I'm happy to see a normal child reaction, but it breaks my heart all over.
We've been talking about being done with chemo, but I'm hoping her brain can handle that we still have frequent lab draws, appointments, & scans to follow up at first. I wish I could tell her we're all done going to the hospital all together, but we're not.
In a way, I can already tell that this post-treatment time period will be harder. It's going to be hard to keep living life, but with a new routine; a routine without chemo feels like we're not doing anything. It's scary to think that we can be enjoying living life with our real-Hazel, the one not affected by the chemo, and then suddenly be blindsided when scans come along. Scans will be every 3 months for at least the first year with even more frequent labs. Will we be a wreck every 3 months? Will it be too long between hospital procedures that Hazel will be even more freaked out? Only time will tell. But for now, I continue to look to God for peace and comfort knowing he's in control. Comfort in knowing God knows the plans he has for Hazel and he loves her infinitely more than I humanly can. And in that, I find peace.
Philippians 4: 6-7 "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God."
Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Grateful:
- That Hazel has been feeling good and having lots of energy and personality
- That she continues to be optimistic, funny, spunky, energetic and full of sass!
- That she's been asking for food and saying she's hungry (still not eating much, but the interest is increasing!)
Prayer Requests:
- For CLEAR scans today!!
- That Hazel will handle the anesthesia well
- For peace and comfort today while we wait for her
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